Smoking gun.

I heard the laughs I missed the joke Skipped in line Tripped over my foot John Doe She fell on her face Not my bed Not my mess I did the time I crawled out safe He’s trying to run He’s trying to hide But karma is never late He missed the finally He missed…

Supporting actress

  I tried to reason with my heart I tried to reason with you I tried to be seen I tried to be cool girl I tried to be heard I tried to be felt I tried to be strong I tried to be there I tried to hold on I tried to look prettier…

Persona

He said I have a blank look That my eyes were dark They told stories Unwillingly gave me away He didn’t know My walls got taller As I got smaller The cells of my body hold on Memory is a bitch Pain body is all I know Walked through the storm And I barely felt…

So this is betrayal.

I’m tossing and turning Making excuses for you But I saw the proof I knew the answer But I asked the question You lied… And I pretended to be okay I was there I went to that place  You weren’t there Words fall flat Land me right on my face I was good to you …

Masterpiece 

Last night I tried to draw you I tried to shade in all my favorite parts of you I thought about drawing myself next to you I wondered how we might look together Would your smile compliment mine? What if I drew your arms around my waist? Would I look safe? I wish you had…

He taught me.

He taught me, never to trust myself Second guessing became second nature He taught me, that his rejection was nothing Minimal to that of the world He taught me loneliness, with him at my side physically there, mentally long gone He taught me, that I wasn’t good enough on to the next, or back to…

Push

Why do you starve your heart To feed your ego Deny yourself the stars and galaxies  To live in earths poverty  How do you silence your emotions To make sure your demons are at peace When did you blind yourself To not see heaven on earth Who have I been? Who do I have to…