He taught me.

He taught me, never to trust myself

Second guessing became second nature

He taught me, that his rejection was nothing

Minimal to that of the world

He taught me loneliness, with him at my side

physically there, mentally long gone

He taught me, that I wasn’t good enough

on to the next, or back to the ex

He taught me, how to feel invisible

even good girls finish last

He taught me, how to be his shoulder

but was no where to be seen when I needed one

He taught me, how to be alone

than he got upset when I mastered the art of it

He taught me, how to be bad

didn’t expect I’d do it better than him

He taught me, how to run to him

couldn’t take it when I ran from him

He taught me, how to survive in chaos

sometimes in my peace I create it

He taught me, about comfort

and never to trust it

He taught me, how to need him

but to never rely on him

He taught me, how to do the deed

get dressed, walk out and pretend like it meant nothing

He taught me, not to feel

to build walls all around me

He taught me, disappointment

and to never let it surprise me

He taught me, that big girls don’t cry

to suck it up and move on

He forgot to love me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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