California

Under her influence.

Welcome to ocean dreams Where life’s a beach I gave you a heart You gave me a scene The actress died He’s doing time Sunset daze I’m doing fine You saw the light The mans alive Heaven on earth The rose she bloomed I was the moon You were the tide We created waves Gravitated…

Supporting actress

I tried to reason with my heart I tried to reason with you I tried to be seen I tried to be cool girl I tried to be heard I tried to be felt I tried to be strong I tried to be there I tried to hold on I tried to look prettier…

Persona

He said I have a blank look That my eyes were dark They told stories Unwillingly gave me away He didn’t know My walls got taller As I got smaller The cells of my body hold on Memory is a bitch Pain body is all I know Walked through the storm And I barely felt…

So this is betrayal.

I’m tossing and turning Making excuses for you But I saw the proof I knew the answer But I asked the question You lied… And I pretended to be okay I was there I went to that place You weren’t there Words fall flat Land me right on my face I was good to you …

He taught me.

He taught me, never to trust myself Second guessing became second nature He taught me, that his rejection was nothing Minimal to that of the world He taught me loneliness, with him at my side physically there, mentally long gone He taught me, that I wasn’t good enough on to the next, or back to…

Push

Why do you starve your heart To feed your ego Deny yourself the stars and galaxies To live in earths poverty How do you silence your emotions To make sure your demons are at peace When did you blind yourself To not see heaven on earth Who have I been? Who do I have to…

Insomnia

She screams at me in agony Reaches out her hand for me And I let her fall on her face I had to… She would later understand Laid facedown on the cold ground All I could do was stare I couldn’t help her up 48hours we stood in this room Cursed my name I was…