I’m sober.

I’ve hit this wall more times than I can count Don’t know what it is about you but you love to pull me under So what shall we call this magnetic force between us The one that makes you obsess over me The one that keeps me worried about you The one that makes us…

Just a reminder.

“Fuck love” I said to him He laughs…Mocks me from the other end He thinks I failed at this He thinks quitting him is where I went wrong He thinks I’ll get tired of trying and run back to him  He forgets he was my first taste at love  He forgets he was my first…

Ocean dreams.

We ignited  Spark by spark  Hearts beating fast I’m California dreaming Trying to catch up to myself  Dressed in tattoos  He was committed to art In a perfect world  Sand in my hair Picked up the pieces alone In the process I misplaced my heart Some days it’s hard to share a hug These deep…

Old wounds. 

Sticks and stones  In the rough… A little kiss A little touch  Some minor pain On a scale of 1-10  It hurt like hell. Someone give this girl an Oscar. She does it so well. Long before she could walk. In and out. Doctor visits. Once in a while girl. Daddy issues. Mommy issues. The…

As I laid there.

I stared up at this ceiling  The fan was dusty and needed some cleaning Much like my heart Deep within myself I threw a tantrum Looked over at you with anger  I wondered how many more pretty faces stared at this same ceiling I caressed these sheets slowly A little bit of last night crept…

the weather keeps changing and seasons have come and gone you said I was just a faze treated me like a disgrace lit the match, that set us ablaze still I forgave. writing to survive another body to make you feel alive starving for a new life you’ll never admit it the reason you were…

Lightning

You yelled “action” and we’re back into this scene Your hearts racing I remember that feeling The unseen A familiar love A touch from above The glare in your eyes Your grip on my thighs Wise beyond your time Somewhere lying bare in the history of my karma Within you I see Zion Maybe its…

Yesterday’s tomorrow

I thought of you yesterday To my dismay and with tears in my eyes You watched me die inside A botched heart A clumsy start Instead of helping me, you gave me the bullets and gun Watched me pull the trigger Offered no compassion Turned away and left me in the dark Alone and afraid…

Prey

I’m pondering my thoughts wishing upon a star hope that my words don’t get lost in translation face to face with the magician traces of his skin on mine repenting for his sins he shot me a grin he looks mighty familiar I’m searching for a trigger he’s lurking from afar had a thing for…

Poison

He said I was a smooth criminal I admit I got my way more than once Have you ever been stared down by a man He may as well have been on his knees Looked upon me like I was a goddess He couldn’t believe his eyes Didn’t know what to do with his hands…