So this is betrayal.

I’m tossing and turning Making excuses for you But I saw the proof I knew the answer But I asked the question You lied… And I pretended to be okay I was there I went to that place  You weren’t there Words fall flat Land me right on my face I was good to you …

Masterpiece 

Last night I tried to draw you I tried to shade in all my favorite parts of you I thought about drawing myself next to you I wondered how we might look together Would your smile compliment mine? What if I drew your arms around my waist? Would I look safe? I wish you had…

He taught me.

He taught me, never to trust myself Second guessing became second nature He taught me, that his rejection was nothing Minimal to that of the world He taught me loneliness, with him at my side physically there, mentally long gone He taught me, that I wasn’t good enough on to the next, or back to…

Just strangers.

It was supposed to be forever  But I’m looking at pictures  Going down memory lane Feelings I can’t describe  I tried to give you a home I tried to give you a partner I tried with everything in me I know you’d give anything to have her back But she’s long gone  Making way and…

Tuck me in.

I keep finding myself in this space I run back without hesitation I feel warmth here and it makes it difficult to move forward It’s home away from home It’s where everything makes sense Every touch and sound is so familiar No matter how wrong it is, it’s where everything feels right It’s where I’m…

Am I there yet?

I fed those feeling’s and it felt so good I caved into that sweet, sweet craving These numbers will haunt me later and I know it’ll make me feel sick to my stomach, but right now is all that matters you see that’s what happens when that lonely sadness kicks in overpowering feelings… suddenly I’m…

⚠️ Caution fragile soul…

I miss the old me The new me is no fun She lives inside of her head Constantly lost in thought Physically unable to move Time passes her by As she drowns in herself It’s not her fault Unable to share hugs And display affection Still she was willing to learn Patience and dedication, is…

Untitled.

I’m standing in front of you numb, And you’re staring back at me dumb as ever. The debris I left behind when I collapsed, left pieces of me scattered. Did it hurt when you fell on your face? Does it suck that I’m no longer fazed by you? We went from this beautiful high, to…

Caught up in you.

I get caught up in these feelings You can’t see me here You refuse to hear me here I get caught up in these feelings I can’t sleep at night Clutching these sheets, it’s hard… I get caught up in these feelings I can’t recognize you You’re everything, I thought you never were I get…

Nothing that is for me will miss me.

   “we fight to hold on, we fight to let go” Life can be as simple or as difficult as we chose to make it, but somehow we always manage to take the path with the most obstacles. If you’re anything like me you somehow manage to make the same mistake more than once. I’ve…